Let me start off by excusing me for the quality of the blog post you’re going to read. I still have to write most of it, even though it’s 23:33. I’m tired, I’ve been emotional all day. I don’t have my shit together. But if I don’t post today, I lose my last “skip day” and then it’s basically game over for my 40 Days of Blogging. So, you can all thank the sheer amount of stubbornness I have on days like these for this post. I turn into a bit of weed and stand there. Or in this case, write.
One of the suggested topics for 40 Days of Blogging was: “Which habit are you trying to teach yourself. Or is there a bad habit you want to get rid of?”
I basically never run out of things I want to teach myself of things I want to change about myself (either habits or new skills). I think you can completely shape yourself the way you want to, but it’ll take time and effort. Often I try to make changes, but I run out of willpower before I’m really there. Not that this is necessarily a bad thing, better to have tried and learned something about it, than being completely stuck.
At the moment I’m working on:
- being kinder to myself – I have low self-esteem and I put the bar for myself quite high. Not an awesome combination, so I’m really trying to be kinder to myself. When I’m thinking about things I’m doing or have done I try to change the way I phrase what I think about myself. Or when I do something stupid, I try not to call myself stupid. The number of times I catch myself being overly harsh is a bit of a shock to me. And if I’m this harsh on myself, I’m probably also to others.
- get into the habit of doing high-intensity training three times a week (Hello Jillian!) – because I feel like all my muscles melted away. And I need to make my knees work so they stay strong. Cartilage or not, I’m not planning on getting new knees.
- painting and drawing more – I wish I already had the habit by new of daily drawing, but I still haven’t mastered it. I often feel this call, this urge to grab my pencils or my brushes and paint and I’ve taught myself to ignore it (to my horror). I also want to go to drawing school at least once a week. Since I started the course I’ve had a hard time going regularly There always seems to be a reason not to go.
- reading more – with some careful planning (such as by not writing my blog post last thing in the day 😉 ) I should be able to get some reading in. Not sure how to cope with falling asleep after only one paragraph, though.
- spending more time in nature – two year’s ago I put on my birthday list to do more walks & spend more time outdoors. I really loved the hikes we did back then, but it never became a habit. I think going for a long walk in nature should be something I do at least once a month, but preferably more. So, it’s time to get back into this.
So, those are the habits I want to get into. Which habits do you want to create? Or do you have a bad habit you want to break? I didn’t get into my bad habits, the post would never end. 😉